How far I’ll go

I am a big fan of Disney.

A big BIG fan. I have seen and own many of the movies that they have released, and there are many more I am looking forward to watching.

 The most recent one I watched in the cinema (and going again to watch tomorrow) is Moana, which is about a girl who lives on an island but longs to go explore the seas beyond. Without spoiling anything she has to learn to listen to the voice within to know who she is and what she is able to do.

This is made more evident during one of the songs ‘I am Moana’ which comes at a pivotal point in the story. She realises who she is, the good and bad, and the whisper of a voice that shows her the power she has inside of her. The realisation helps her to go on to complete what she set out to do, without fear of failing.

Now as a follower of Jesus I believe God speaks to me in all manner of things and not just an audible voice as is shown in so many films (in fact I don’t think I’ve ever heard an audible voice of God). Some of the ways He speaks to me are through songs and movies, such as the lyrics to ‘I am Moana’. 

This particular song definitely hit home, in relation to something I was going through at the time. I had recently been feeling a little lost in life and unsure if being a nurse was the right thing to do (keep in mind I’m like right at the end of my course about to qualify). 

It made me rethink of the journey I had gone through to get where I am. 

The part that most spoke to me was actually a bit of the song by the grandmother of Moana.

Sometimes the world seems against you
The journey may leave a scar
But scars can heal and reveal just
Where you are

The people you love will change you
The things you have learned will guide you
And nothing on Earth can silence
The quiet voice still inside you
And when that voice starts to whisper
Moana, you’ve come so far
Moana, listen
Do you know who you are?

I have been hurt in the past and it’s left scars which have changed me for better or worse. I have also loved and learnt so much from those that I have called my friends and family. 

But the most important thing is I have listened to God who has been the whisper of a voice inside me, the constant thing that has kept me going through the good times and especially through the hard times. 

This movie made me more aware of what I’ve had to overcome to get to where I am and the journey has made me who I am. Later in the song, Moana sings 

I’ve delivered us to where we are
I have journeyed farther
I am everything I’ve learned and more
Still it calls me

It helped me realise that I long to do more, but to get there becoming a nurse is part of what I need to do to go to what is ‘calling’ me. 

So although at the moment it’s really a tough time as I try and finish my degree, I look forward to seeing how far I’ll go.

Until next time, dream big

Moon xx




2017- The year of courage

In my last post I mentioned that this year I would be choosing a word to base my year around. The idea being that throughout the year whatever I do or come across, that I have that word in mind.

The word I choose was COURAGE




– the ability to do something that frightens one; bravery.

 – strength in the face of pain or grief.

As a follower of Jesus, I believe that He speaks to me all the time, in various ways, and when thinking of the word for the year was no different.
Initally I had thought of another word, however after watching the movie Moana, in which I related to the message of the story and the lyrics of some of the songs, as well as one particular preach at church which linked in, plus a reading from ‘W4U2D’ (word for you today) which also linked, it became clear what word I needed to choose.
I also realised that I had started to live with courage at the end of last year.
After having a really tough time just before Christmas, it took courage to admit I needed help and to seek that help. 
It took courage to drop my pride over the fact that I won’t be getting a first or even a 2:1 in my nursing degree.
It took courage to take time for myself even though I had the pressures of trying to finish  work, in order to de-stress.
It took courage to put about my anxiety on the last post.
Having courage helped me, even though some days I didn’t feel very couragous at all.
So what does this mean for 2017?
Up until now I had had a plan that I was following: get through school, get through A-levels, do a gap year and go to university (although i had a blip and it took 3 attempts to get into university), train to be a midwife.
Although there is still the goal to go onto midwifery training, it’s a bit of an unknown what I’m going into this year. 
I have a job lined up but it’s not definite, and assuming I do pass the necessary final pieces of the degree puzzle, I won’t fully know how I will actually cope being a fully fledged nurse.
Being a nurse will also mean being courageous enough to stand up for those I am looking after, to make sure they get the care they need and deserve.
Having a job will mean being even more of an ‘adult’ than I am now and thinking ahead to how I will use my new resources (mainly money). I will have to be courageous to tread new areas in my life, in new relationships and new responsibilities.
Then there’s things going on in the wider world that scares me, but I know that I need to have courage and faith, and keep trusting in my God. 
So even though not fully knowing what is going to happen this year scares me, I’m looking forward to the adventure it will lead me on.
Until next time, dream BIG
Moonwillow92 x